Something I need to remember, borrowed from Live Life Happy
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
Saturday, April 20, 2013
Goals and realizations
Today I hit my next goal. I've now lost 39.4 pounds. I'm one third of my way to my goal. I'm 5 pounds away from my pre pregnancy weight. I'm 3.3 BMI points away from being merely 'over weight'. I should be doing a happy dance in the street and yet I'm not. I feel meh about the whole thing. Fact is I feel like nothing's changed. I'm almost 40 pounds lighter but I feel the same.
It's like I've stopped seeing the changes. To me I look the same and since no one seems to have noticed that I've lost weight it seems to reinforce that feeling. Part of that is my fault. I'm not shouting it from the roof tops, I'm not posting before and after pictures, I'm not really even talking about it. Fact is I never took before pictures. Now I know comparing now to then might help change my perception, but when I'm so far from my goal I don't see how. More people now know that I've been working to lose weight, but not many. I've done that on purpose. I don't want false hope, cheers, people counting on me to do this. I put enough pressure on myself, I don't want people rooting for me to fail. Even those with the best intentions never seem to really be sinecure when it comes to body changes. Always comparing, hoping that you don't outshine them, minimizing their progress or struggle. It's human nature and why I do this alone.
I have proven I am strong. I will do this. I'm fighting through stress and uncertainty at the moment, the weight loss being one of the only steady things in my life right now and that scares me. Giving it too much power, becoming wrapped up in it. Going to far.
For now I try to accept the changes, or lack there of, and keep climbing.
It's like I've stopped seeing the changes. To me I look the same and since no one seems to have noticed that I've lost weight it seems to reinforce that feeling. Part of that is my fault. I'm not shouting it from the roof tops, I'm not posting before and after pictures, I'm not really even talking about it. Fact is I never took before pictures. Now I know comparing now to then might help change my perception, but when I'm so far from my goal I don't see how. More people now know that I've been working to lose weight, but not many. I've done that on purpose. I don't want false hope, cheers, people counting on me to do this. I put enough pressure on myself, I don't want people rooting for me to fail. Even those with the best intentions never seem to really be sinecure when it comes to body changes. Always comparing, hoping that you don't outshine them, minimizing their progress or struggle. It's human nature and why I do this alone.
I have proven I am strong. I will do this. I'm fighting through stress and uncertainty at the moment, the weight loss being one of the only steady things in my life right now and that scares me. Giving it too much power, becoming wrapped up in it. Going to far.
For now I try to accept the changes, or lack there of, and keep climbing.
Monday, April 8, 2013
Another month down
Life is marching on, little less then a month and we are free from the navy! Goodbye career and stability and hello unemployment. It's a bit unsettling. Husband needs to go to housing this week and see if we can stay in the place we are at for now. We won't have the extra to get into a new place till June, so hopefully we can just change how we pay rent and just keep things how they are. My eating well might be put aside for a month or two since eating and paying rent won't be able to be done at the same time lol we will figure it out!
So, weigh in.
04/08 223.8 pounds. A total loss of 35.2.
I still have a hard time believing it. It's happening though and by January I will be at a weight I can't remember ever being at! Just hoping all this stress, relocation, and not knowing doesn't completely mess up my progress!
So, weigh in.
04/08 223.8 pounds. A total loss of 35.2.
I still have a hard time believing it. It's happening though and by January I will be at a weight I can't remember ever being at! Just hoping all this stress, relocation, and not knowing doesn't completely mess up my progress!
Friday, March 1, 2013
In a blink
It's been over a month since my last post. Much has happened. My husband's med board came back and he will be officially medically retired from the navy in a month or two. We are waiting for approval on his submitted retirement date so he can start job hunting and we can figure out if we need to move. Lots of stress but we are getting through it. This month I start organizing and cleaning like crazy, want it done before my mom comes to visit next month for Bubba's birthday. Still wrapping my head around he fact he will be two!
So, all this stress and I'm still on track. I'm actually at a 26 pound loss now! That's 9.9% of my starting weight. I'm still amazed. I see little changes and my clothes are getting huge, this is actually working. Eating right and working out does work. Who knew? Besides everyone that is. It seems so simple, and it is. A little elbow grease and in 2 months I have undone 2 years of weight gain.
Dec 26th 2012 259lbs
Jan 28th 2013 242lbs
Feb 07th 2013 240lbs, first mini goal met!
Feb 28th 2013 233lbs
I set up mini goals for myself every 20 pounds. The first was actually only 19 pounds and I got a new cd and water bottle for my efforts. For hitting 220 I plan on getting a heart rate monitor. Do I know how to party or what?
So, all this stress and I'm still on track. I'm actually at a 26 pound loss now! That's 9.9% of my starting weight. I'm still amazed. I see little changes and my clothes are getting huge, this is actually working. Eating right and working out does work. Who knew? Besides everyone that is. It seems so simple, and it is. A little elbow grease and in 2 months I have undone 2 years of weight gain.
Dec 26th 2012 259lbs
Jan 28th 2013 242lbs
Feb 07th 2013 240lbs, first mini goal met!
Feb 28th 2013 233lbs
I set up mini goals for myself every 20 pounds. The first was actually only 19 pounds and I got a new cd and water bottle for my efforts. For hitting 220 I plan on getting a heart rate monitor. Do I know how to party or what?
Monday, January 14, 2013
Organization has begun!
just pictures. Kitchen is getting there!
Pantry: breads, canned foods, breakfast, and beans/pasta
Freezer
Fridge
Pantry: breads, canned foods, breakfast, and beans/pasta
Freezer
Fridge
Sunday, January 13, 2013
work it
Today is day 18 since I decided to be serious about changes in my life. I'm feeling good! Waking up at 8 is getting much easier, still on a semi schedule, though it's much looser then I first planned, and I'm starting to get organized. My pantry and freezer got over hauled over the last few days and today I clean out the fridge and do vegetable prep. Been eating healthier and sticking to lose it! Exercise is still a struggle but every little bit counts. As of Friday I have lost 11lbs.
01/11/13
Weight 248
down 11lbs since 12/26/12
I still have 100lbs to go but I'm chipping away at it! I still have my days where I wonder if it's even worth it. It is. I have 2 kids that right now I don't have the energy to chase after. In a year I will. No excuses. There will be set backs, I expect that, I will keep moving forward. No matter what.
01/11/13
Weight 248
down 11lbs since 12/26/12
I still have 100lbs to go but I'm chipping away at it! I still have my days where I wonder if it's even worth it. It is. I have 2 kids that right now I don't have the energy to chase after. In a year I will. No excuses. There will be set backs, I expect that, I will keep moving forward. No matter what.
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