road blocks

So I'm 5 days into my new life. It's getting bumpy. I'm sore, I'm tired, and I'm craving popcorn. I know things will get easier, I will get used to the exercise, my stomach will get used to having less food, I will get used to a new routine. Just getting there though is the issue. I broke my rule and weighed myself. I'm down 5 pounds. Which is great and wonderful. I know how much more I have to go though and it seems like a huge uphill battle. When I added my new weight to lose it! it adjusted my goal date and how much calories I can have. It took 30 calories away from me! How rude! I was not expecting that, it's a bit of a bummer. On the plus side I love lose it! It's an app and corresponding website. You can log and keep track of your food and exercise, set goals, join challenges, get support, and much more. The best part of the food log is you can add in your recipes. Say you are cooking something and don't feel like doing the calorie break down. Add all the ingredients into the app then add how many servings and it does the work for you! It's genius, and it's free.

So you know how I said I lost 5 pounds? I did that by eating chocolate, bacon, and tacos. Portion sizes baby! I know as I lose weight though and my calorie allowance is lower I will have to start cutting things out, but for now I'm enjoying my Godiva! 50% off after Christmas sale. Yeah baby. I'm going to enjoy it while it lasts. As for my other goals, I've been so busy the organizing hasn't happened. I have exercised three times this week though! That's something. I still have a few days on these goals before I update, just plodding along!

Happy Boxing Day!

Hope everyone survived Christmas. We cheated and did our gifts earlier in the week. My daughter (Stinker, age 3) had been getting increasingly frustrated with waiting for Santa to come and bring her presents. I ended up taking the kiddos out for lunch and when we got back Santa had visited.

 

They got quite a haul this year. Was a fun day. Must say there was a huge plus to doing it early, my husband was home for the kid's Christmas hangover the next day. Stinker at one point snuck down stairs, ate all of her Christmas candy, and snuck her new markers and drew all over herself and her room. 

Thankfully Bubba (21 months) was pretty good through it all, I figured he would be overwhelmed but he jumped right in and started ripping paper off of his gifts. Even with doing gifts early we still did our Christmas Eve tradition. We get new pjs and a new game and sit down with popcorn and have at it! This year the game was Uno Moo since Stinker is now old enough to join in. It's a really cute game and she caught on much quicker then we expected.

Now that the holidays are over I have started to seriously think about changing my life style. I was organizing my closet and realized I have no clothes. I have 3 shirts. Looking through my clothes it looks like I haven't bought clothes since 2 sizes ago. Don't have money for new clothes, which really sounds depressing anyways, so I downloaded a weight loss app for my tablet and dug out my exercise DVDs. Yesterday was yoga, I forgot I had some of those muscles, I am sore today! Please note, I am not going on a diet. I thought about it, and seriously considered the 3 day diet, then I came to my senses, mindlessly following a set menu of food I don't want to eat isn't appealing. Plus you can quit diets. I'm changing my eating habits. I've done it before with great results. Back to proper portion sizes and keeping an eye on calories. And yes, my stomach is growling as I type this, but I know I will quickly adjust. I always find the first week is the easiest so it's the next week, and the week after that I'm keeping my eye on. 

I have no short term goals, just a long term one, to lose 100 pounds by my 10th anniversary. Yeah, it's a lot, but it ends up averaging 2lbs a week, which is doable. Biggest thing though is still only weighing in once a month and no beating up allowed. Ok, that's a lie, I do have a short term goal, to lose enough weight to fit into the clothes I have lol Right now I have a dress hanging in my closet, my mom gave it to me last year. It was a squeeze to fit into it then. I want to be able to fit it comfortably and I plan to go out and have a night out when I do!

That brings me to this weeks goals and this months weigh in,

Exercise 3 days a week

clean and organize bedroom

organize kitchen pantry

Dec 20th, 2:40pm 259lbs

You might have noticed that the weigh in was done last week, there is a reason for that. I had been having some knee pain so my husband talked me into seeing my PCM, they weighed me there so hey, why should I do it again? As for my knee, I was diagnosed with Patellofemoral Pain Syndrome (PFPS). It's one of those things where they acknowledged that I am in pain but since nothing is torn or broken they won;t do anything about it. I get a knee brace next week and I'm waiting to talk to a physical therapist. I mainly want to see what they suggest that I can do at home, it doesn't bother me enough that I feel I need a full course of physical therapy. Will see what they say!

For now, I have a hour left of blissful quiet before Bubba gets up so I am going to go enjoy it!

Cozy

 Nothing like a chocolate mani to make you feel all cozy!

Week by week

So I've been trying! My goal is a blog post a week, and well, life and holiday prep is getting in the way. I'm slogging along though. Seems like every time I get something accomplished 2 little 3ft tall tornadoes come through the house and I get to start all over. I think by the time holidays are over I will have more time on here, probably not but it's a nice thought!

Slacking already

I keep coming back here to post and I'm always pulled away. I don't use the PC that often so it can be hard to squeeze my time in. Still plugging away, things start getting done then they start piling up again and it gets so over whelming. Don't worry, I'm still here and I'm still doing what I'm trying to do.

Can I have a do over?

On Sunday I hit that milestone called year 31. I'm not one to quibble over my age. Fact is my 30's suit me better then my 20's did. Just could have done with a better day. No cards, no gifts, no cake. Just cranky kids and a sick husband that slept all day. On Monday though I said screw it and made myself a cake. Happy Birthday to ME! Enough of that, the important things!

Weekly goals:
Continue to get up at 8am
Downsize the kitchen
Find a way to limit the kids tv time

You may notice some goals are repeated from last week, there is a reason for that. The whole premise of making weekly goals to to make small changes to facilitate large changes. Well the changes last week just did not work. By turning of the TV in the morning it meant I had screaming children underfoot as I cooked and cleaned in the kitchen. So this week I find a better way to do it. As for 8 am, I am trying, I really am. By getting up at 8 it gives me actual time to clean and get somethings done. See what I meant by changing one thing so others can happen?

This weeks big goal is downsizing the kitchen, I already started clearing out extra dishes. It finally dawned on me, I don't need 2 dozen plates for the kids, just means I have to wash 2 dozen brightly colored plastic plates. This week I will be clearing out stuff we don't use, don't want, and the things we just have too many of. I mean do we really need that many coffee cups?

There is one more thing I want to address this post. My weight. It's something I have been struggling with for about 10 years and every month I plan to do a weigh in. No beating myself up allowed. Just an acknowledgement of where I am.

11/20/2012 1pm
weight 256 lbs.

This is easily the heaviest I've been. After I had my son it's been very hard keeping up with. Things can only get better.

Ready for thanks

Gobble Gobble?

Will post more tomorrow, today was a bummer and I don't feel like hashing it out just yet. So turkey nails! Gobble Gobble!

no progress is some progress

So my goals for the week have fallen flat. Yes, I know it is only Wednesday, but the week feels over. Between being sick, driving my husband to to a doctors procedure a few hours away, and just feeling blah I keep giving in. Nothing has gotten done around the house and sitting on my ass really feels like the best use of my time and energy. The household chores have gotten so overwhelming. My mom used to come over a few times a week to help out but she recently moved back to California so I'm at it alone again. The longer nothing gets done the harder it is to chip away at it, it's so depressing.

On the brighter side I received my first Indie Polish! I ordered Hare polish in Rusty Hearts. It's lovely in person. Personally I think I should have went with a glitter bomb for my first indie but I'm not a huge huge fan of glitter polishes. I'd post a picture but bad lighting plus a recently broken nail means I just don't want to! I typically would not pay $10 for a polish, fact is I have a hard time justifying $2 for a polish! This was a treat for my birthday, while my husband says he knows what he wants to get me, he usually falls flat when it comes to gifts. Though I must admit, without my mom here I really don't care about my birthday and Thanksgiving just sounds impossible.

I love Thanksgiving, easily my favorite holiday. Since I've had a family though, being away from my family in California, my husband gone on deployments, etc etc I just don't know anymore. This year feels impossible. Seriously thinking of going out somewhere instead of spending all that time and money on a meal that I honestly don't think I would enjoy. Going from a packed house at my grandma's every year to a very small gathering just leaves me down. I need my family around during this time of year.

So tomorrow I pick myself up, try to slog on with my goals, drag myself out to be social, and maybe actually accomplish something. Friday I will deal with Friday.

Beginnings

On this, the week before my 31st birthday, I make this promise to myself. I will make a conscious effort to better my life for myself and the ones around me. To do this I will make small little changes that will motivate and hopefully make room for big changes to happen.

My goals this week:
No t.v. before nap time
Internet use to be restricted to times when the kids are in bed
To wake up at 8am

Hopefully if I can commit to doing these 3 things it will open up opportunities for other things to happen. Baby steps!

 For those reading, a brief explanation. This blog is for me. A way to motivate, set goals, and record what I am doing and my progress therein. I am not writing a blog to see how many subscribers I can get, or to get comments, or even free stuff. This is for me. You are welcome to join and read along of course.

 Recently I have been looking at my life. I'm over whelmed, under motivated, and not happy with how my life has progressed. Don't get me wrong, I love my life. A mostly happy marriage, 2 wonderful kids, and way more pets then I would prefer. Getting here I have sacrificed a lot and lost myself along the way. Time to get me back. I have a feeling this is going to be a bumpy ride.