Can I have a do over?

On Sunday I hit that milestone called year 31. I'm not one to quibble over my age. Fact is my 30's suit me better then my 20's did. Just could have done with a better day. No cards, no gifts, no cake. Just cranky kids and a sick husband that slept all day. On Monday though I said screw it and made myself a cake. Happy Birthday to ME! Enough of that, the important things!

Weekly goals:
Continue to get up at 8am
Downsize the kitchen
Find a way to limit the kids tv time

You may notice some goals are repeated from last week, there is a reason for that. The whole premise of making weekly goals to to make small changes to facilitate large changes. Well the changes last week just did not work. By turning of the TV in the morning it meant I had screaming children underfoot as I cooked and cleaned in the kitchen. So this week I find a better way to do it. As for 8 am, I am trying, I really am. By getting up at 8 it gives me actual time to clean and get somethings done. See what I meant by changing one thing so others can happen?

This weeks big goal is downsizing the kitchen, I already started clearing out extra dishes. It finally dawned on me, I don't need 2 dozen plates for the kids, just means I have to wash 2 dozen brightly colored plastic plates. This week I will be clearing out stuff we don't use, don't want, and the things we just have too many of. I mean do we really need that many coffee cups?

There is one more thing I want to address this post. My weight. It's something I have been struggling with for about 10 years and every month I plan to do a weigh in. No beating myself up allowed. Just an acknowledgement of where I am.

11/20/2012 1pm
weight 256 lbs.

This is easily the heaviest I've been. After I had my son it's been very hard keeping up with. Things can only get better.

Ready for thanks

Gobble Gobble?

Will post more tomorrow, today was a bummer and I don't feel like hashing it out just yet. So turkey nails! Gobble Gobble!

no progress is some progress

So my goals for the week have fallen flat. Yes, I know it is only Wednesday, but the week feels over. Between being sick, driving my husband to to a doctors procedure a few hours away, and just feeling blah I keep giving in. Nothing has gotten done around the house and sitting on my ass really feels like the best use of my time and energy. The household chores have gotten so overwhelming. My mom used to come over a few times a week to help out but she recently moved back to California so I'm at it alone again. The longer nothing gets done the harder it is to chip away at it, it's so depressing.

On the brighter side I received my first Indie Polish! I ordered Hare polish in Rusty Hearts. It's lovely in person. Personally I think I should have went with a glitter bomb for my first indie but I'm not a huge huge fan of glitter polishes. I'd post a picture but bad lighting plus a recently broken nail means I just don't want to! I typically would not pay $10 for a polish, fact is I have a hard time justifying $2 for a polish! This was a treat for my birthday, while my husband says he knows what he wants to get me, he usually falls flat when it comes to gifts. Though I must admit, without my mom here I really don't care about my birthday and Thanksgiving just sounds impossible.

I love Thanksgiving, easily my favorite holiday. Since I've had a family though, being away from my family in California, my husband gone on deployments, etc etc I just don't know anymore. This year feels impossible. Seriously thinking of going out somewhere instead of spending all that time and money on a meal that I honestly don't think I would enjoy. Going from a packed house at my grandma's every year to a very small gathering just leaves me down. I need my family around during this time of year.

So tomorrow I pick myself up, try to slog on with my goals, drag myself out to be social, and maybe actually accomplish something. Friday I will deal with Friday.

Beginnings

On this, the week before my 31st birthday, I make this promise to myself. I will make a conscious effort to better my life for myself and the ones around me. To do this I will make small little changes that will motivate and hopefully make room for big changes to happen.

My goals this week:
No t.v. before nap time
Internet use to be restricted to times when the kids are in bed
To wake up at 8am

Hopefully if I can commit to doing these 3 things it will open up opportunities for other things to happen. Baby steps!

 For those reading, a brief explanation. This blog is for me. A way to motivate, set goals, and record what I am doing and my progress therein. I am not writing a blog to see how many subscribers I can get, or to get comments, or even free stuff. This is for me. You are welcome to join and read along of course.

 Recently I have been looking at my life. I'm over whelmed, under motivated, and not happy with how my life has progressed. Don't get me wrong, I love my life. A mostly happy marriage, 2 wonderful kids, and way more pets then I would prefer. Getting here I have sacrificed a lot and lost myself along the way. Time to get me back. I have a feeling this is going to be a bumpy ride.